Monthly Archives: March 2012

I am…

I am…

   A soul with a body
Flesh and blood and breath
Laughter and tears
As fragile as a child

Handle me with care


It pays to be fearless. Love to you all…Karm


Chit Chat Rant

In her tiny lit corner

Of an immense cyber world

She sits with pen in hand

To chatter, rant, ramble

Rave, roar, rhyme

Whine, grumble, protest

Smile, laugh and cry

And whatever is revealed

Is real

No longer concealed

Behind blind eyes

Whether they be caring, daring

Glaring, bruising, or amusing

Thoughts ooze, drip and tumble

Onto the page without

Restriction or retraction

Until the mind is at peace

With its compulsion to think

And the spirit is released

To wander freely

In wide open spaces

In tranquil silence


It pays to be fearless.  Love to you all…Karm

Can’t Fight It

Dear Mr. Pathetic,

It’s been two months today since our break-up. I think I’m doing amazingly well getting over you. As a matter of fact, I can hardly remember what I saw in you that made me fall head over heels.

There have been days in the last month when I’ve written rants and poetry memorializing you. I’m glad those sad days are few and far between now.

Not being in a relationship with you isn’t as difficult as I thought it would be. In fact, the relief of not having to deal with you on a daily basis is a real plus.

Those long phone calls listening to you complaining about every little thing in your life made me very tired, especially the calls on your way to work at 5 a.m.  Grrrrr! I don’t miss them.

The constant whining and endless stories about your (dead) wife…well all I can say is, “dead wives make cold bed partners.” Get over it.

You have more baggage than a 747.  I keep asking myself, “what was I thinking?”

Now I’m out meeting new people and having more fun than I ever had with you. It’s over so there’s no reason not to make the most of my new freedom.

Memories and thoughts of you are fading.  Six months from now I probably won’t even remember your name.  Life goes on and that’s a good thing.

Mr. P have a good life. LMSSSFKDAO

(laughing my sweet silly sexy free Karmic Diva ass off)

It pays to be fearless. Love to you all…Karm

Guy Translator

With all the modern technology available, why hasn’t someone invented a guy translator?  We could type in what he says, hit the search button and get an instant translation of what he means.  This would be a revolutionary new addition to any woman’s arsenal of she-gadgets.

Communication in a relationship is so important. The problem is, we’re all on our own to examine, analyze, and interpret what a man says to us.  I often get it wrong and end up stunned when my response is way off the mark.

A guy translator would make things so much easier.  No more over-analyzing to try to figure out what he means. No more asking a million questions to get to the truth.  No more arguments over misunderstandings.

Men and women are wired differently in how they communicate to each other.  A guy translator wouldn’t make a relationship effortless by any means, but the time saved using it would give us a lot more time to shop.  I may be on to something big here.

It pays to be fearless. Love to all…Karm

Wonder Word #3

Round 3…Here we go again! Every once in awhile I hear or read a word that I suddenly connect with on a whole different level. I call it a “wonder word.” I wonder what it means. I wonder if it’s a verb, a noun or something else.  I wonder if it’s a word I could use.  I wonder what words rhyme with it.

If I don’t know what it means I’ll google it.  If  it’s one of the craziest or coolest words on the planet I want to remember it.  I’ll store it in the part of my brain that keeps track of all the crazy stuff that I might want to revisit someday.

Today’s word is…

placid – pleasantly calm or peaceful, unruffled, tranquil, serenely quiet or undisturbed

It doesn’t describe much about chaotic me these days but there’s always tomorrow.

It’s a keeper.

It pays to be fearless. Love to all…Karm

Belly Fat

I hate to admit it but I have serious belly fat. I’m curvy, not heavy or skinny. Back in the day when I was really thin I still had belly fat.

As I’ve gotten older I have even more belly fat. I haven’t gained a lot of weight so I could never understand why this annoying muffin top was taking over my waist. Apparently, as levels of estrogen decrease, body fat tends to shift from the arms, legs and hips to the abdomen after menopause.

Oh great! Damn hormones! Grrrrrr!

Now that I know what the problem is maybe I can fix it. I sat down with my tuna sandwich, potato chips and iced coffee and did what any normal person would do. I googled belly fat.

My favorite site was They actually make weight loss sound easy. Their 3 basic rules are move more, eat less and eat right.

I’m going to give it a try. I’m officially on a quest for a (perfect) sexy, flat belly. Wish me luck. I’ll keep you posted on my progress.

It pays to be fearless. Love to you all…Karm

Dear Sorrow

Dear deep and penetrating sorrow,

For many breathless moments I grieved, mourned

For what I once believed was a lasting bond

I confess

The days and nights spent with you seemed endless

My nightmares of betrayal and doom

Brought to the surface a festering wound

Goddesses gathered to hear the pain

of my tortured vision of infinite blame

Angels came to reveal my ability

to hear unspoken truth, to accept reality

Healing is now, forgiveness may never be

But I know that through you I am finding me


It pays to be fearless. Love to you all…Karm

Music is “New Day” by Philip Wesley

Reach for Tranquility

One of my favorite pastimes is reading inspirational and spiritual poetry.  I also love listening to tranquil music, meditation and taking long walks as a silent observer.  I believe we all have a purpose, and a place in the world and the universe that is uniquely ours.

It’s important for me to take time away from my daily routine for self-reflection. There are days when I try to get in touch with a deeper sense of meaning to my everyday life.  Other times I  reflect on healing and self-renewal.

This inspirational poem, “Desiderata” by Max Ehrmann, is one of my favorites. The music video is named “Uncertain” by Simon Daum. Mr. Daum is considered a new age classical composer and writes some of the most beautiful, tranquil music I’ve ever experienced.  Enjoy!


Go placidly amid the noise and haste, and remember what peace there may be in silence.

As far as possible, without surrender, be on good terms with all persons. Speak your truth quietly and clearly; and listen to others, even to the dull and the ignorant, they too have their story. Avoid loud and aggressive persons, they are vexations to the spirit.

If you compare yourself with others, you may become vain and bitter; for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself. Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans. Keep interested in your own career, however humble; it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.

Exercise caution in your business affairs, for the world is full of trickery. But let this not blind you to what virtue there is; many persons strive for high ideals, and everywhere life is full of heroism. Be yourself. Especially, do not feign affection. Neither be cynical about love, for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment it is perennial as the grass.

Take kindly to the counsel of the years, gracefully surrendering the things of youth. Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune. But do not distress yourself with imaginings. Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness.

Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe, no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here. And whether or not it is clear to you, no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.

Therefore be at peace with God, whatever you conceive Him to be, and whatever your labors and aspirations, in the noisy confusion of life, keep peace in your soul.

With all its sham, drudgery and broken dreams, it is still a beautiful world.

Be cheerful. Strive to be happy.

Max Ehrmann c.1920

Online Dating Pitfall

Looking for love on a dating site can often be maddening. It’s a lot like catalog shopping.

For example, I see a picture of a pair of boots I love in a catalog. I read the description and they seem to be exactly what I’m looking for so I order them.

When I get them there’s problems. They’re not what they looked like in the picture. They don’t fit right. They might even be damaged.

I get disappointed and even angry about it. I made assumptions about the item. I had expectations. I was attracted to how they looked. They sounded so good on paper.

Now I have to decide whether to keep the boots or send them back. Maybe I could re-gift them or give them away just to get rid of them.

What we get is not always the gig we signed up for. Maybe I’m expecting too much by relying on a picture and description to form an attraction to someone. After all, these are just superficial aspects of a person.

There’s no way I can know a person by reading their profile. It’s like writing an ad, It’s just enough to try to capture someone’s attention. It’s not an in-depth description of who they are, where they’re at, and what they value.

I’ve found that with online dating sites, it’s one thing to become curious about someone. It’s another thing to become instantly attracted to them.

Be cautious with your heart and don’t fall for the hype. The last pair of boots I got was a bad fit but I wore them anyway.

I’m trying to become a more savvy shopper.  This way I might have a better chance at finding my true fit.

It pays to be fearless. Love to you all…Karm

Yeah! A New Award!

WOW! Thank you so much Sailor of Tears for nominating me for the Very Inspiring Blogger Award. I’m so flattered that you would consider me. To my blogging friends, please read the beautiful works written by the Sailor of Tears.

These are the rules for this award:

1 Thank the person who nominated you

2 Share seven thing about yourself

3 Pass the award to seven nominees

7 things about me:

– I can be a rose among the thorns or a thorn among the roses

– I can be down to earth or have my feet planted firmly in the clouds

– I consider my life “controlled chaos” that is sometimes chaos out of control

– My worst bad habit: procrastination

– I love quickly and trust slowly

– There’s nothing worse than love gone wrong

-I’m working on my mojo

And here are my seven nominees who have inspired me and helped me along. There are so many others that also deserve this award. Keep spreading the love.

Broken Sparkles

Search 4 a Soulmate

The Narcissist’s Blog

Running Naked With Scissors

Creating Imaginary

Sorry I am Not Sorry